A: Having nothing too wonderfully amazing to say or write about
B: Not feeling like blogging and being totally unmotivated
C: Wanting to discuss a few things but then again, not even wanting to go there
D: Being too distracted with work to focus on even thinking about being bloggy
Unfortunately, I am the victim of all 4 bloggy horrors this week.
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| I don't want my blog to become a horror itself so I thought I had to follow these non-bloggy feelings..... |
"Did the Novocain numb your blogging abilities?"
Oh, shit. I knew I needed to get back on the horse after I read that. Someone DOES care that I blog. LOL, I know people read my blog but sometimes, it's easy to back off a little and think no one will notice. WELL, Uncle Darling sure did. ;)
I'm back but not for long because when I clock out today, I won't be back at work for 11 days! WOO HOO! Gotta love that vacation coming up! I am going to take really good notes while I'm on vacation so that I can give every detail and hopefully restore my blogging glory. ;D
Mama Darling is on her way here right now as I'm typing this. She is driving here from Chicago and it should take her about 15 hours. I called her on my way to work this morning. She said she left there at around 3:30 AM and was just past Indiana. I told her she still had a ways to go. Teehee!! I'm sure she was really excited to hear that. I'm going to keep calling her through-out the day to check on her and make sure she's not stopping every 15 minutes to pee. NO DRINKING ALLOWED, MA! JK!
Mama is staying with us for 9 days. It's also during this stay that we are going on our Myrtle Beach trip. I'm planning on taking tons of pictures for posting here when we return. We are all super excited to see Mama, be off of work and go to the beach. This will be the last hoorah for the kids before school starts on the 22nd.
I got presents from Uncle Darling yesterday in the mail and I was really grateful for them because I got ZERO coupons out of the dumpster this past weekend.
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| I had them spread out so I could see what I had to work with! |
There were some really good ones in there!!! Thanks, sweet Uncle Darling!
The other night when Jade and I were walking we came across this sitting on the edge of someones front yard:
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| I know, it's just a red wagon.... |
The next night, when Red went walking with Jade and I, we saw the wagon AGAIN....We left it sitting there but if we walk past it another time and it's still there, we might make a kid really unhappy. We are so bad.
Supa and I had a rough weekend last week.
We finally came to the realization that after almost 15 years of being together we are not arguing because we can't get along. (We so can!) We are arguing because (Supa and I's theory) Supa may have PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) from his shitty childhood. I really think that is a possibility. I mean, I'm no shrink but I am a Supa expert. I have lived with him for a decade and a half and I see the pattern. He flips out at NOTHING and cannot control how mad he gets. He doesn't know how to self soothe himself or stay calm. I truly think these are skills that your parents (especially your mother) teaches you when you are a small child and if you're mother doesn't nurture and love you, how in the hell are you supposed to acquire these skills? These skills are important in the real world and definitely in a marriage.
Long, long, LONG story short, Supa and I are not giving up. I am not prepared to give up on my marriage. I want the Supa that I fell in love with. I know he's in there just dying to get out. He's just being suppressed by all these terrible feelings from his traumatic childhood. I don't know what I would do if I grew up being treated like he did. I bet I would be royally fucked up too! I'm surprised he's not worse than what he already is.
I was even starting to wonder what I was going to do to get out of my marriage (and how that would affect my kids) when we finally realized what was going on. I took a step back and took a few moments to really think about what that would mean, and I didn't like it one bit. I don't believe in divorce unless you're being beaten or cheated on. I mean, there are other reasons why you would have to get divorced but I take my marriage vows seriously! For better or worse, in sickness and in health....WAIT, THAT'S THE PART I NEEDED TO REFOCUS ON. Supa is sick. Thank God it's mental/emotional and not physical. We can work on that!
Supa and I talked for a long time. We both agreed to go back to the marriage counselor as soon as we get back from vacation and tell her that this is what we need to focus on. NOT all the petty arguing that every married couple goes through but the BIG stuff that needs to be fixed. If she can't help us with trauma counseling, then we need a referral elsewhere and I'm the perfect, crazy bitch to tell her that! I want my husband back, undamaged, as soon as possible!
It feels really good to have gotten all that out.....
Now,
I did go and get my third root canal appointment taken care of this past Tuesday. I told my dentist how horrible the second appointment went and that my cheek even bruised. He took one look into my mouth and said that the other dentist that numbed me up gave me a shot right into one of my blood vessels in my mouth, causing the vessel to burst. That is where the bruise came from and that's why it was SO painful afterwards. GRR! What?! Why do things like that always happen to me?! I know not to let that dentist numb me up ever again!!
I got my post put in and my filling put in. My tooth is finally finished (for now, I do have to go get the cap put on but not for awhile and that should be a lot less of a pain, literally) and I should be able to chew on that side now BUT I can't because my face is STILL sore from the stupid shots on the second appointment!! Oh, geez. Hopefully, it's back to normal really soon and that I never need a root canal ever again!
That's all I have for today folks! I am really sleepy here at my desk and it's time to watch the clock and wait for my time to make my escape to vacation land.....
I hope everyone has a great next week and I'll be back soon.....
Love,
Apple
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