What To Do.....??

I've recently been thinking about going back to school.  (For those of you that laughed, I'm not that fucking old.)

This thought all started when I went and watched Supa's colonoscopy being performed.  The doctor and nurses were all impressed that I could watch and not be grossed out.  They all wanted to know what I did for a living (oh so boring and meaningless).  They all wanted to convince me that it was never too late to go back to school.  I have plenty of time to do what I really want to do with my life and to be exactly what I want to be.  

Honestly, I'm never easily convinced but this conversation with all these medical professionals really got me to thinking....

Then I saw the whole Kony 2012 thing and that made me think even harder.  What am I planning to do with the rest of my life?  Work in a call center for a credit union forever?  I understand that it's a job and someone has to do it but I really feel like I was meant to do something more important.  I already know that my main goal in this life is to be a great mother (and wife) and I'm doing that.  I'll always be Dazzle and Neon's mother but let's face it.  One of them is 10 and the other is almost 13.  They're already both half way to 20!  Pretty soon, I will be moving onto the next phase of my life where I will have lots of time for myself.  I want to make a real difference.

Don't get me wrong, I have several years left but I'm inching my way towards that middle figure.  I need to make some big decisions on what I'm doing before I start heading towards that last number. 

I talked to Supa about the idea of going back to school and at first he was completely supportive.  He urged me to do whatever I needed to do to make myself complete and secure the kind of future career I wanted to have. 

After talking about it for a few days....He then reminded me of when I decided I was going to go back to school years and years ago when Neon was a baby.  I took one Math class at the technical college down the street (while working full time and taking care of a newborn and a 3 year old).  As you can probably guess, that didn't work out very well.  I did get a 98-A in the class and exempted my final exam but I was tired as hell.  I almost forgot what the kids looked like and it wasn't a good idea financially at that time.  Basically, it was too much at once.

This is not a place I want to be anytime soon.

NOW, things are very different.  Supa is the money maker in our current situation and we can afford to pay for the classes.  My kids aren't all grown up yet but they are very helpful and responsible.  I have plenty of downtime at work to get homework and studying done (most days). 

Supa and I also talked about what I wanted to do exactly....

Well, let's see....

I am completely obsessed with the thought of finding a dead body in the woods so I can poke at it with a stick.  Coroner maybe?  Cutting open a dead body to see what's inside sounds fun to me!  Supa gently reminded me that although he's certain I would have no problem playing inside adult dead bodies, he knew I would choke if I had to see a dead infant or decapitated two year old.  He was right.  Also, we read on the internet that each county has a coroner and they have to be voted in.  That sounds really difficult to find a job.....

I think coroner is out :(

I'm not afraid of dead bodies, guts or gore.  In fact, I'm totally fascinated!

I guess I'm really interested in something in the medical field.  If I could cut up a dead body, I'm sure I could give someone an I.V.  Now we just need to narrow that down.  That's a big field, the medical one.  LOL

Supa said maybe I could become a pharmacist.  They make about $120,000 per year.  Wow.  Only bad part is, I hate chemistry and that would be a big part of the classes I would need to take. 

HAHA!  Yeah, right.  I memorized this in high school because I had too and long since forgotten each one except maybe water. 

I'm smart and I know I could apply myself and learn the things I need to learn but do I really want to?  I would have to go to school for about 6-10 years.  Wow.  How old am I?  I'm not old yet but by then I might feel like I am. 

OH SO MANY QUESTIONS, OPTIONS AND THINGS TO THINK ABOUT.

I decided that I need to keep thinking about it and definitely talk to my life advisor, Aunt Darling.  She gives excellent advice and makes me think about things I would have never thought of on my own.  I'm going to wait until I see her in person so we can pick each other's brains for an extended period of time.  I like in person better than over the phone.  That will probably not be until our next trip home (around the first week of April). 

Be patient my bloggy readers.  I will update you on what is decided...It might be awhile before you hear about this again but if you know me, you know that once I get something in my head, it's extremely hard for me to get it out. 

Happy Thursday everyone,

PS, what I would really love to do is sell my blog, write it for a living for some newspaper or magazine and QUIT my current job.  :)  I wish I had more interesting things to talk about so that could be possible.  I always wanted to be an author when I grew up.  I do have a huge love for writing and still feel like I want to write a book....Hmmmm....

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